It sad. Lots of things happen for the past few months. 2008 hasnt been great for me. Perhaps its life? Meant for me to find the way I wanna go & sort out my thoughts to enable me to get to somewhere where I should be? But, its so hard. Even a step took me so much courage.

Perhaps Im just useless.

It pain ones heart to know the fact that a friend by the age of 18 just pass on this way. Its the least expected that happened. It do send us crying in tears. I cant believe it when I hear about it. May you rest in peace.

It makes me thing about all the happening for the past few months upon the news. Life hasnt been great for me & I hate that even when I did try to make it better it never did change. This world, life, seems so nice, fun to be in, yet beyond thoughts it went for always.

Lifes vulerable. We tent to realise it only when its gone. Never did pay much attention when its still on-going. Whats left is nothing but regrets. But, I do hope we learn. Things always happen for a reason, we just have to take it cause we cant change it. It life, life.

Recently, earthquaks & the deadly cyclone cause thousands of life. Indeed it was hurtful to see such a thing happen. Natural disaster, it just came & go taking so much with them.

This few months, I learned. Or perhaps it should be 'I realised'. Life dont wait for us, it just keep going. Thing happen & we have to move on. I know but I didnt manage to do so. It hard to get over it. 2 of my family member just pass on. Right before lunar new year, they were fine & great. But, the last day joy, turn to tragedy. Grandfather went on his journey to another world with a sudden heart attack. Fews day later, great grandmum went over as well. It all too sudden & all we did was cry. Sad, I realised only when its too late. Now I finally know how much they meant to me. But only when they are gone.

Family problem hit me hard. I cant believe I knew about it. Girlfriends problem got me feeling really down too. It so hard for me to understand what was going on than. Its too much for us to take. Its all too sudden. But, Im great its better. Now, I heard about a friend who once was so good did something thats so heartbroking. I really wonder why all this happen before we get to know the reason for all.

Life, why do you have to play tricks on humans?

& I realised, I shouldnt pester you any longer. It only makes you hate me, not love me.